waste away

sebastian tan is wasting away
he hates this kind of feeling
the sianess
the emptyness
the stupidness
the absurdity of it all

sebastian tan going to ns
he's going to try and start a new life
he doesn't want to be like this forever
in this sorry, miserable state

sebastian tan is bored
sick of staying at home
sick of having nothing to do
sick of having nobody to talk to
sick of watching other people doing their things

sebastian tan is rather disappointed
his results are only fairly well
he couldn't get any scholarship
he's not even sure he can get the course he wants
he regrets being complacent
he knows not to be complacent
he wants to be humble

sebastian tan is tired
he can't sleep at night
he can't wake up in the morning

sebastian tan thinks patapon is stupid
the bosses keep dropping useless stuff
the game cannot be paused

sebastian tan wants to go out/meet up with everyone for one last time before he goes into ns
he has an ambitious plan
he knows it is not exactly very feasible but so far he has more or less been trying to do so